Friday, March 31, 2006

Beyond My Own Box

So its already known we saw Goapele and Floetry in concert tuesday, though "saw" is not an appropriate word. It was more of an experience, than a mere checking out another concert. i don't have many words for what happened, for its spirit is and will be in my soul for a very long time. she is doing something in there to me, perhaps causing new seeds to grow.
they make me want to be a better woman
and if i do nothing as a result from this experience...then i am a fool!

last night, i was part of a showcase in san antonio.(thank u Vocab) grand opening of sa's own ruta maya. the place is lovely, very metro. a step away from the riverwalk.
yeah, early enough to grab a bite to eat and be serenaded by a mariachi band.
my 2 youngest ones got to hang out with me. it was more of a treat for me than for them. i want to include and expose them to more of what i do, than exclude...thinking poetry once again is taking momma away.
they met some of my fellow poets, and of course hit mom and dad both for their never-ending hunger....didn't we just eat?
okay, so as i'm sitting there, i'm realizing...there's no big brotha b whispering in my ear, no 13 quick coaching me or thumbs up, no joey waiting with encouraging hugs, none of sarah's smiles.
i got scared
wanted to think of an excuse to leave
wait a minute...
these are my fellow poets, here just like you...a passion for the word. no ego trips, no status seeking, just here to share. and we did!
everything and everythang, diversity was great.
knowing i was part of this diversity,
exposing myself to poet's i normally wouldn't have,
meeting new ones next time who won't be strangers,
taking away a new perspective,
realizing i can go beyond my own box...
feet no longer seem as heavy
and the world seems a lil bigger

4 comments:

Angel said...

"taking away a new perspective,
realizing i can go beyond my own box..."

I think this is such an important statement Shelle! I worry sometimes if because we are so used to our own peeps and places (and the continuous love they show us), we become ineffective because we have lost the ability to interact with others? Proud of you boo for holding your own! :)

CousinSarah said...

Love you mama. I am blessed to be a part of your life and growth. Wish I coulda been there to see you too.

joey said...

wow...gulp... beautiful, do the dang thang sister!

my coffee is always said...

I am so sorry I wasn't there... But I'm on a mission with the J.O.B. sista's working to get to the nose bleed rung on the corporate ladder... got mad responsibilities over the horizon... Am proid of you, am sure you did well....I want to thank you for allowing me to be a small complex part of your life... it's wonderful to see everyone move full circle... ever revolving, ever changing, ever growing... You are one hell of a poet, continue to find your voice...
thir13teen