Feel...

...feel the pain, feel the joy, until you feel you'll surely evaporate. stop holding back from laughing with your belly, loving from the deepest places of your heart, swooning with the sensuality of life itself. feel how good it feels to love another human--and if you're lucky, to be loved in return. feel the warmth inside you when you do the right thing. feel the fire that's ignited when someone tramples that which matters to you. when another's disregard or arrogance enrages you, feel the anger rise up and roar! let your honest feelings come through, even the ones that make other people squirm. if you're not truly feeling, you're not truly alive--you're just going through the motions and getting nothing in return.
--rachel snyder

so many of us are not truly feeling, not living...just existing. we suffocate our true selves. sweep the pain and the anger underneath the rug of our souls. numb our very existance with over prescribed drugs, alcohol, and other vices...i am guilty of this as well.
this is not about any one life. i am not sitting in judgement, for fingers certainly point back at me.
from my own experience, i have only truly lived these last few years of my 30's and i know my beautiful 40's have even more great things in store for me.
the pain is still there. skeletons still rattle. some days i quiet the demons at the end of a smoke trail wafting through the air...but i am still choosing to feel most days, choosing to live, choosing to laugh in my own face.
we are in need of healing.
we are in need of feeling.
i will reach for you, as i need for you to reach for me
much love