Thursday, January 22, 2009


it is crazy feeling the way that i do about life right now, specifically my relationship with this jazz man.
i will not lie about it, i am scared to death...trying to work things out, and wondering if it is the right thing to do...will it work...will things that need to be changed actually change, or remain the same...am i settling...will i or he screw it up???
questions, questions, questions, run rampant through my mind, and i am desperately trying to silence the voices of self doubt.
like i said...i am scared to death
i still consider my self single, and he does too...because neither one of us wants to jump right in...though i may have jumped the gun just a bit.
i love the man, never has been a doubt; and i know he loves me...i have never doubted that fact either.
the serious conversations have started, and i hope they continue...we are worth it...my family is worth it.
so again, please keep us in your prayers
if we realize this is not working, well, we want to walk away knowing we did all we could of done to try to make it work...and that is all i want...to make sure i tried everything.
love can carry one a great distance

1 comment:

maljazur said...

What does "not working" mean? If it means that you find your heart run through a wringer at times, or feeling like you're giving more than you are receiving..may as well give it up now. Those feelings are bound to appear. If you keep working, it is "working". Ask any couple celebrating their golden anniversary. I pray a working spirit in both of you and spirit of contentment knowing you both fall short but are exactly enough...